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When I Grow Up

When I wasn’t paying attention, I grew up.  Not just the done with school, moved out of the house part but the gray hair and the slightly achy joints, the need for bi-focals, the forgetting how to knit a particular stitch.  Last night I pretended I hadn’t grown up.  I pursuaded the family to pile into the car at nearly 11 at night and we drove off into the darkness in hopes of seeing the Aurora Borealis.  We drove a considerable distance –nearly 100 miles roundtrip — but we didn’t find the Aurora, only stars and satellites, the Milky Way and the darkness.  For a brief moment I felt all the promise and possibilities again.  I didn’t get to bed until 2:30 but that was okay.  When I woke up this morning I felt enthusiastic and hopeful again.

Its scary to contemplate the end that is near.  Not near in the immediate sense but near in that its closer than the start of things.  I can understand why people cling to the idea of god and heaven and an after life—the idea that this is it is so huge and daunting and downright frightening.  This is It and yet, what the heck have I done?  I have debts, a job I feel meh about, not enough free time, not enough money to retire, no real idea of what I would do if I did retire.

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actually cooking

I cooked something last night besides dinner.

I tried this recipe for “Burnt Miso Butterscotch.”  I read the recipe on-line a couple of weeks ago and found it fascinating if for no other reason than it requires one to purposefully burn food meant to be eatten which is usually NOT my goal.

To be honest, I’m not really sure if I actually “made” the recipe since I’m clueless as to how it should taste and I had to do some substitutions and tweaking (shocked, shocked and appalled!!) like white wine vinegar in lieu  of sherry vinegar and demerara sugar instead of straight brown sugar and well, I’m pretty sure it was shiro miso since I’m not big on the other kinds but I just went for the half empty container instead of opening the new one I bought special for the recipe (look honey!  I reduced Open Unused Stuff in the fridge!!!!!) and my blender  has never quite recovered from making crumbs for meat balls so I had to rely on the hand blender.  And I only really had enough ingredients to make half a batch and the family hanging out in the kitchen was  pretty convinced things that come out of the oven burnt are Not meant to be eaten so I couldn’t get anyone to try it last night BUT I think I will eat a few more spoonfuls before I render a final review but in the interim, may I throw out the word UMANI for consideration? Like a slightly sweet version of Marmite. . . hmmm, lunch might have been better spent chasing crumpets as opposed to blogging because then I could go home and toast a crumpet and spread it with some burnt miso butterscotch.

Maybe tomorrow.

 

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